Make your choice...

MY choice is to continue getting healthy and continue to be the type of person that people can look to and say to themselves- that if I did it, they can do it too!!

Lesson reinforced...

So today I met the mother of one of my dearest friends. She has dementia and does not remember her family.. Or anything really. I looked into the eyes of this woman that raised my friend... Lived her life... Loved who she loved... Helped who she helped... And now- she can't remember. Her eyes held love- but not a firm recollection of why that love exists or who the people are whose hearts have been touched by that love. 

Life is to short folks... Love while you can, and treasure those who love you in return.... 

ME

I am strong...
I am worth somebody's heart...
I am worthy to be a life partner....
I keep my committments....
I know what I deserve and I will accept nothing short of it...not from anyone...not even from myself.  In the name of that- I worked out like a BEAST today....and then spent the afternoon with my girl Hannah and had a great time!!!  And took this pic!! ha!!

Sun burnt!!!!

But happy....oh so happy! Water always does that for me....and what an amazing surprise!! Yes...today was a good day.....indeed!!!!  Did I work out? yes!! Did I eat right? Yes- for the amount I worked out!! Ba ha ha!!  Am I going to bed proud of myself and happy?? Yes!!!

Very true!!

I finished my 90 days... But with a big gap at the end... Guess that was to be expected after having a breast lump cut off of my chest wall and finding out the man that said he was in love with me isn't. So I will await papers for divorce and I will get some sleep tonight... And wake up with the same hope I have in my heart right now... Of good things ahead for this girl!! If you work hard- good things will come!!!

Completion...

Tomorrow morning I will wake up..and when I do, some chapters in my life will be closed when I open my eyes...this is one of them!!  But it's only the end of Tapout xt as far as this one is concerned....cause I will be staying on in this blog!!  I am moving on in my life...lots of changes this past 90 days...changes and things that NO ONE (well..one person apparently)...but no one else, would have foreseen!!  But I've done it...and I'm walking away with my head held high...and I'm seeing the new doors that have opened for me and the friends that stand by each one!  I have triumphed over this program and everything else that happened along side of it...and that was no easy feat.  So tomorrow I will wake up...I will do my final video...and I will say goodbye, knowing that I finished.  To those that don't know me- that won't make sense...but for those of you that don't- never fear, this blog will continue.....it is not hardly at all a goodbye for us here!!! And for those of you that DO know me....a million thank you's!! For standing by me through this program...and through all the things that happened in the middle...and now, as I close those chapters and say hello to my future!!!

Day 89...

Going out with the girls!!
Day 89... Damn she's fine...